i thought this hari raya wouldn't be the same.but i was wrong.totally wrong.
this hari raya is mean so much for me.i suddenly realized what is hari raya for.

+i am not perfect+

two days being at home.esok last day puasa.

i don't feel anything nak raya.seriously.
rasa macam hari yang biasa yang dilalui setiap hari.
i think this feeling is normal for me.everytime nak raya, aku mesti teringat my past kid memory.
i hate to memorize it because it was not so fun.

but it still keeps staying in my mind.telling me that i had changed a lot.
let me repeat.

I HAD CHANGED A LOT.

really i do.
i don't know what makes me keep standing up when i fall, but i did.
i don't know what makes me trying to be i am now,but i did.
i had a very severe adolescent crisis during my teenager's time.
i had very low self esteem, keep thinking that i am ugly.
that is why i hate to memorize it.

but one day i saw my friends around, they are comfortable with themselves and keep asking why can't i?
start from that day, i was trying so hard to find what is missing in me.
trying to find the my inner strength that i don't realize that i have it all this time.

so.i did.
i am not perfect but i love to be me.
and i won't be what others want me to be.
because i know what i want.
it is more than what others expect me to be.

+TER'ONLINE....'+

HI everyone..
actually tadi aku tengah focus nak buat slide for forensic accounting.tiba 2 je aku ter'online'.hehe.apa lagi.aku terus upload gambar sesuka hati.
slide forensic accounting entah ke mana.Its okay.don't worry.
aku akan siapkan juga.because esok kena hantar.terukkan.betul2 last minute.tapi okay apa.yang penting kerja siap,right?
memang begini perangai aku.but we have to make sure that we know what we did.
make sure kita tak tersasar jauh.
pointer kena jaga.right?
so, sorry entry aku sangat pendek and agak tidak berinformasi.
not this time but almost everytime.
so enjoy the pictures beside.
have good time.

+headache..+

my last semester is a really busy semester.
assignments and tests will not over until final exam.
so, i just can do what the best that i can do to face this chaos.
i really have headache for last couple of weeks.
nextweek i have 3 tests, 1 presentation,plus 2 quizzes.
please pray for me.
i really out of my mind.

+AKU MASIH DI SINI..+

hai...actually yesterday, 23hb august is my birthday.so,1 am 22.
nothing special this time.it is just that i have him beside this time.
lama tak upadate blog because hidupku agak terumbang ambing sejak kebelakangan ini.
there are assignments to be finished up,tests..quizzess....
so i rarely online.
i need to focus.
so what else to say.
bulan ramadhan really testing me.
dalam kelas mataku asyik nak tertutup je.
dulu aku boleh minum air,kunyah2 something.
sekarang rasa macam nak tersengguk pun ada.
rasa macam nak tongkat kelopak mataku dengan pen.
huhu.
but i did try my best.
really i do.
sebab aku bukannya pandai.
bukan juga bodoh.
so aku cuba sebaik mungkin untuk tidak menghampakan diriku sendiri,keluarga.
aku tidak akan pernah berhenti mencuba.

+EMAIL FROM AKSB..+

aku tahu dah lama tak update blog.the truth is i have no idea.and bila check email hari ini,aku teruja sebab pihak air kelantan membalas email aku.they said:

Assalamualaikum,

Terima kasih kerana membuat aduan kepada PINTAS.

Untuk makluman, pihak AKSB sentiasa memantau bekalan air dari Loji Rawatan
Air Merbau Chondong, yang membekalkan air kepada kawasan sekitar depan UiTM
Machang.

Tekanan rendah berpunca dari terdapat gangguan dari bekalan TNB di loji
tersebut serta kejadian paip utama yang pecah.

Sekian, harap maklum.

jadi apa kesimpulannya?aku pun tak tahu.so maybe aku kena buat aduan kepada TNB pula kot?

+LATEST BABY+MOM'S PICTURE..+

DEDICATED TO: MY SISTER'S FRIENDS, STUDENTS.

These are the latest pictures of my sister and her baby.